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Nov. 26th, 2005 @ 02:08 pm
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ok this is my update for the week or last time i did. i had a good thanksgiving with my family. (brian,mark,courtney,and dominic) we cooked a hell of alot of good food for being young or whatevr living together people said we couldn tdo it but here are!! umm now yeah me and kim broke up awhile ago and she said she wanted to be friends. ok time passes and then one night like last night i go to th e movies and i hung out with sam lita kristin (my girlfriend) and cameron (my best friend) were there and i mean everyone was flirting and all and then by the end of the night kristin and i are going out and sam and lita are dating weird huh? so i got bitched at by kim she told me she still loves me and that she has decided that she wants to be with me again and this time for good but i dont know if i should believe her or not. i mean were still friends and all but we aways argue and she always thinks that im out to piss her off and im not cause i hate when she does that to me ya know>? well we talked and kristin and i talked and i mean it was great we have never faught or argued we both want the same things and i can trust her casue i hae known her for awhile. kristin yea tebea leblue!! kim ............?
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U...God heLp me to forgive those that need my forgivness, heLp me not to hate, but to find love in my heart to those that hurt me, heLp me to caLL on you in the midst of any situation...((good or bad)), heLp me find the strength to move on with my life, and to do it with my head heLd high and to look back and have no regrets. Lord I ask that you change anything negative in my Life and make it positive. HeLp me to understand that aLL things happen for a reason and its aLL part of your pLan for me, no matter how high the suffering. And heLp me to understand that with aLL the pain I endure now, you have something better for me in the end.Current Mood:  distressed Current Music: crossfade- cold |
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Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 01:06 am
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hey guys well im still alive for those of u who read this. i have a new cell phone. the number is 848-7080 call me anytime perferably after 9 or anytime on the weekends. i have been really sick lately and in the hospitol im fiine though. umm yeah see u guys later. ps im 18 my birthday was november 4th. im goingt o school tomorow i wonder if any one even will member or got me a card for the thought |
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hey guys well it was a fun night for me last night and now its the day time. it is november 4th!! my fucking b-day!!!! hell yeah im so fuckin happy and i have the one person over here that means the most to me and for some reason i seemed to have piss her off and i dont know what to say or do so im staring at her right now as she is stasring at he floor!! hmm i love her soo much and now i have done somthing wrong. great this is all i need on my fucking b-day. well ill up date later guys!!! i love you baby!! |
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Nov. 1st, 2005 @ 06:49 am
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razorblademadnes (5:11:34 AM): but ur taken
mendherwings (5:11:38 AM): lol i kno
mendherwings (5:11:49 AM): but if you only knew how much
mendherwings (5:11:50 AM): nvm
razorblademadnes (5:11:57 AM): how much?
razorblademadnes (5:12:01 AM): how much?
mendherwings (5:12:24 AM): lol i dunno
mendherwings (5:12:30 AM): i like you like alot
mendherwings (5:12:40 AM): like to much for comfort
mendherwings (5:14:02 AM): that i care for you alot
mendherwings (5:14:07 AM): like you alot
mendherwings (5:14:11 AM): ??
razorblademadnes (5:14:28 AM): ok
razorblademadnes (5:14:30 AM): we
razorblademadnes (5:14:35 AM): u keep changing
mendherwings (5:14:43 AM): what
razorblademadnes (5:14:46 AM): so kim u like me??
mendherwings (5:14:49 AM): yes
razorblademadnes (5:14:56 AM): how much?
mendherwings (5:15:01 AM): alot
mendherwings (5:15:11 AM): more than i should
razorblademadnes (5:15:16 AM): why?
mendherwings (5:15:29 AM): casue i'm taken and i want you
razorblademadnes (5:15:36 AM): why?
mendherwings (5:15:46 AM): i don't kno
mendherwings (5:15:55 AM): l just like you
mendherwings (5:16:09 AM): your fuuny and sexy and so sweet to me
mendherwings (5:16:42 AM): i feel stupid noe
mendherwings (5:16:44 AM): now
razorblademadnes (5:17:18 AM): why do you?
mendherwings (5:17:40 AM): feel stupid?
razorblademadnes (5:18:14 AM): yes babe why?/
mendherwings (5:18:35 AM): i'm like pouring my heart to you and
mendherwings (5:18:45 AM): like i just really met you
mendherwings (5:18:48 AM): in a way
razorblademadnes (5:18:54 AM): im listening
mendherwings (5:19:28 AM): i like you like i shouldnt cause like i'm with somone but you make me feel differnt then he does
mendherwings (5:19:34 AM): your differnt
mendherwings (5:19:40 AM): and its weird
mendherwings (5:19:50 AM): why am i saying this omg
razorblademadnes (5:20:37 AM): ohh
razorblademadnes (5:20:44 AM): cause u care
mendherwings (5:20:44 AM): ohh?
razorblademadnes (5:20:57 AM): and maybe i feel the same
mendherwings (5:21:16 AM): really
mendherwings (5:21:17 AM): ?
razorblademadnes (5:22:14 AM): yes
mendherwings (5:22:44 AM): are you sure
razorblademadnes (5:22:51 AM): no im lying
mendherwings (5:23:02 AM): omg how werid is this
mendherwings (5:23:23 AM): i feel nervous
mendherwings (5:23:29 AM): i'm never nervous
wow i met the most amazing girl. i mean i knew her before but we lost contact and then we regained it cause she found my myspace and that is so freaking awesome. she means alot to me and we want alot of the same things in life. plus she is 17 wow thats like around my age huh? im soo happy and i have been up all night so i think im just now going ot go to sleep. |
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Dear Girls (from us guys)...
Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
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It makes us feel SO secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.
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Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.
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On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
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Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
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Yeah, you can quote me.
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Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
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Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
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You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
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DONT flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with YOU.
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Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
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Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartny is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
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Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey
handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
But seriously sometimes looks ISNT everything alot guys who arent exactly "hot" will treat you the way you need to be treated
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.
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**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY, DISCRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the
eyes....and say "i love you" ...
....and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance
Oct. 27th, 2005 @ 06:47 pm
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wow im so hungry and bored. i just missed the bus this morning and i tried to im shane but i guess he changed his name? what the hell is it shane???? well im kinda dissapointed in myself cause i didnt see my gurl al weekend and i missed the bus so now i hav to wait even longer to see her damn it !!! wek;gan rgn snguisbtizsungjsdzniughyuasnhsnls'Etuosgklsdnmgio"HYEKNMSO*gteotylksNOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 07:00 am
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"We could learn a lot from crayons some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, while others bright, some have wierd names but they all manage to live in the same box."
Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 11:37 pm
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Go ahead tell your penis you didn't play with him because you were out getting high. He'll understand
[M][A][S][T][U][R][B][A][T][I][O][N] My Anti-Drug
Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 01:56 pm
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Hey today was a funny day i went to work and sommer and chris showed up and it was soo funny becouse the waitresses looked out the window and was like eww look at the nasty fat ho" it was hilarious!! then my manager said that they were not aloud to come back up there or they would call the cops on them. so i called her and told her what my manager said and she was like why and i was like cause ur a nasty hoe and a bitch and becouse since i dont like you neither do they!!! and then i hung up one her!!! i hope that she comes back up their cause a couple waitresses want to kick her ass and are looking forward to it!! i laughed my ass off when i heard that oh well enough for today!!
Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 01:11 am
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GOLDFINGER LYRICS
"Free Me"
I didn't ask you to take me from here
I didn't ask to be broken
I didn't ask you to stroke my hair
or treat me like a worthless token
but my skin is thick
and my mind is strong
I am built like my father was
I've done nothing wrong
so free me
I just wanna feel what life should be
I just want enough space
to turn around
and face the truth
so free me
when are you gonna realize
you're just wrong
you can't even think for yourself
you can't even make up your minds
so my mind's a jail
I hate the whole goddamn human race
what the hell do you want from me
kill me if you just don't know
or free me
I just wanna feel what life should be
I just want enough space to turn around
'cause you're all fucked
someday maybe you'll treat me like you
Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 05:54 pm
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I've tried everything I knew to try
I've said all I've had to say
I've given all that I could give
But it doesn't matter anyway
I could bring you all the stars
I could cry a thousand seas
I could promise you the world
But it's not up to me...
Because it's not that easy
It doesn't matter what I do
It's not up to me
It's all up to you...
I've dreamed of you so many nights
I've prayed for you so many times
I've wished on so many stars
But it's your heart to win, not mine
I wish that you would love me
And things could be so happy
I wish that you would want me
But it's not up to me...
Because it's not that easy
It's not about me loving you
It's not up to me
It's all up to you...
Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 05:47 pm
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By: Emylee Bauder
Cold tears,
Breaking heart.
This emptiness inside,
Is tearing me apart.
Horrid thoughts,
Fill my head.
Why not let go?
Inside I'm dead.
Watching you walk away,
Was the hardest thing I've ever done.
After all that we've been through,
You're my only one.
You never looked back,
As you walked away.
I just stood in silence,
As tears streamed down my face.
They say that love can kill you,
Well I guess it must be true.
Nothing's ever hurt as bad,
As being parted from you.
Your face still so clear,
Locked in my memory.
Your voice still rings,
From when you said you loved me.
If you truly loved me,
Then why'd you walk away?
Leaving me to cry,
And my heart to break.
As I close my eyes,
I slowly stop crying,
They say love can kill you,
Is that why I'm dieing?
This pain I feel,
Now we're apart.
Love didn't kill me,
It was my broken heart.
Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 08:48 pm
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Sometimes I want to empty the contents of my head
The excitement and the pain
That rushes through every crevice
If you could see what I feel
If you could hear my thoughts
It's deafening
A thousand explosions going off at once
And I'm pulled this way and that
Everybody wants something
But they don't see what's hidden
They don't see the emotions
The anguish I share with no one
I'm a scared little boy
With so many fronts
And too many breaking points
A ticking time bomb
And anyone can set it off
Daggers stab right through me
You can't see the blood but it's there
A million thoughts racing
I need to please everyone
Selfish and selfless...what am I?
Intentions aren't good enough
I'm a good boy I swear
But no one believes it, no one
They all have their suspicions
Too much paranoia
Too many false epiphanies
I walk on pins and needles
And I skate on thin ice
And any moment it could crack and I will fall through
And I'm scared no one can save me
But what do I really want?
I want to be completely free
I want people to stop expecting things from me
I want to believe every choice I make is alright
I want to feel safe every night
I want things to stop haunting me
My thoughts exactly
Oct. 18th, 2005 @ 01:56 am
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Full Name: Jennifer Caitlin Watts
Date Of Birth: January 4, 1988
Place of Birth: DeLand, FL
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Astrological Sign: Capricorn
Heritage: Irish/Celtic/British
Height: 5ft 4or5in
Natural Hair Colour: Blonde
Current Hair Colour: Bleach blonde w/ black bangs, i'm gonna do it all black soon
Eye Colour: Blue
Religion: none
Scars: razor blades, steak knives, lighter burns, anything with a sharp edge
this was a good friend of mine and an ex girlfriend. her mom sent her away some where and i wish to regain contact with her. if you know any way i or she can get ahold of me please leave me a comment and tell me.
Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 10:28 pm
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ok umm so i just got back from work. i had to go into work at like 7:30. i got home around like 2 in the morning. umm i had the best night ever!!!!!!!!! Emylee and Chris and I went together. i had a blast. im glad that i got to spend that time with emylee cause i never do anymore and at times i feel like our friendship is drifting apart but after last night i know it never will. we shall be friends for ever and ever. We are not just going to stop being friends after high school it will continue after. umm so yeah we went into like a couple haunted houses together and got the shit scared out of us. There were like people that were hiding all over the place trying to jump out and scare us only 1 did the whole night. i was looking one way and the next i knew he was in my face with a dagger and a shield and beat on it in my face. i almost hit him but knew he was just doing his job trying to scare people but he succeded with me. others were chasing emmy around and made her run off like a few times. chris and i went on the t-rex ride but emmy wouldnt go cause she says that she hates drops and i wasnt going to make her do something she didnt want to not that i could make her!! ohh yeah and the best part was when we went and saw the bill and ted show!!!!! Napolean dynamite is the shit. he was there along with batman, darth, mouthballs, ronald mcdonald, wendys girl, fantastic four, willy wonka,the king off of buger king, and some others......... it was so funny. willy wonka was like he was going to take them on the hersey highway and to the fudgepacking room where they will get there fudge packed!!!!!! you just had to have been there!!! then as we were leaving we thought that (emmy and I ) should buy (MOM) a gift!! emmy says that since her last universal glass broke she was so upset that we suggested we shold go pick her out a new one! it only cost like $$$$$$ hah i will never tell just in case so she will never find out. emmy thanks again for going with me even though i paid more than half for u to go but that didnt matter to me cause the time i spent with u last night was priceless and i wouldnt trade it for the world. macey i love you and i miss you but i will be back soon!!! chris it was fun i want to do it again friday but i dont know i might not be able to afford it if i can and i have a ride you know im going. umm i came home and had to be to work in like 3 hours that suxed but i needed tghe money. im talking to julia now so im goingt ogo and get a shower the nsome sleep and prolly go somewhere!!!
Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 03:41 pm
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A guy is nearing the end of his senior year in high school.
Unfortunately,
he still has to share a room with his younger brother who is only 9
years
old.
One night, he decides to bring his girlfriend home for a little fun.
They have bunk beds and the guy notices hat his little brother is already
asleep
on the lower bunk, so he and his girlfriend climb up to the top bunk.
As you might expect things start to heat up.
The guy remembers that his little brother is sleeping below so he tells his
girlfriend to whisper "lettuce" if she wants it harder and "tomato" if she
wants a new position.
Lettuce!!!
Lettuce!!!
Tomato!!!
Lettuce!!!
Tomato!!!
Lettuce!!!
Tomato!!!
She screams.
Lettuce!!!
Tomato!!!
Whoa!!!
PULL IT OUT!!!
PULL IT OUT NOW!!!
I can't get pregnant!
Then the little brother shouts up, "Hey, would you guys stop making
sandwiches up there! You're getting mayonnaise all over my
face!*!*!*!*!
Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 03:02 am
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So I guess this is it
There is nothing left here to see
You got sick of trying
I got sick of being unhappy
It feels weird, doesn't it
How I can't say I love you anymore
How we can't hold each other's hands
And do the things we did before
But it's okay, it's okay
Things like these happen everyday
It's okay, it's okay
Nothing lasts forever anyway
And we'll finally wake up, from this breakup
So I woke up today
And finished with all my doubts
Finished asking myself
Why we couldn't work it out
It is weird, isn't it
How we got sick of sacrificing
How we had enough of all the fights
And all the compromising
And it's okay, it's okay
Sometimes love isn't enough
It's okay, it's okay
There is still life after love
And we're going to wake up, from this breakup
Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 02:49 am
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hey im really tired so im not going to be on here long. i was on the computer when the fire alarm for the whole building went off. my brother and my roommate came runnig in saying get dominic out of the appt now the building is on fire. so i got him and got out only to cough on the smoke in the hallway. it was our nighbors appartment and his stove caught on fire and he couldnt put it out so my brother and my room mate ran into the burning house and put it out wit ha nfire extinguisher. after all this happened we went to the hospitol to get checked out from the smoke. chris and i are going to halloween horror nights tomorrow. i cant wait. i think it will be fun. it better be. i wrote emmy a poem. umm im so tired its 3.00 and we just got home from the hospital. i had that we had a fire on my away message and no one even imed me to see if i was ok. that pisses me off. i know people read it!!! fuck them!!!!!!!!!!! emmy thanks for being the one that cared. and also somer for calling me.
Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 02:44 am
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ok today has sucked in alot of ways. i am so happy chria and i are going to halloween horror night s on friday. and umm ny friend i know u deleted those entries but guess what i saved them and e-mailed them to me just before u did. ha hah hah sneaky little bastard arent i? well i have them soo...................
Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 01:01 am
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